Empty chair.: If you let it fade away, you're doing it wrong.

I just came to the conclusion that NOTHING should fade away. Of course I had a reason to be thinking about that. I was thinking about how meaningless this fading away thing makes our experiences. We should be loud and honest, voice our sentiments and fight for them, we shouldn't settle for a peaceful closure. Does that make any sense? Feelings can't just be put to rest, so why do we do that? Why do we settle for saying the good and the bad stuff we lived with someone can be forgotten in favor of a peaceful coexistence? That's bullshit! Feelings don't just disappear! If I ever hurt someone I once loved, I'd rather have them hating me than forgetting I exist. We have absolutely no right of banishing someone we once loved from our minds. That's cruel! Sometimes I thought that was happening to me, that I just didn't care enough about someone to even think about him (I actually wrote about it here), and now I see that was my defense against being forgotten first. Turns out I was forgotten, and I can't figure out why, I can't understand how such strong feelings are there one day and on the next they vanish. I know I'm not making any sense now, I'm sorry. I'm just so angry! To me, this feels like being told I'm worthless by one of the people I loved most in my life. Isn't that sad and pathetic? Not even being worth a thought of someone who once thought about you every day? It really makes me feel like nothing we lived had any meaning. So, please, you who are reading this, don't ever do that to anyone, acknowledge people's existence, even if it's to tell them they hurt you and you hate them. Don't ever let them feel they never meant anything to you. Unless you want to torture them. If that's the case, go for it, there's no better way to make someone suffer. With a single blow you hurt them and make them doubt themselves.

And now a nice picture of a Great White shark to stop me from being so bitter.